but he seems unable to make time for me...no..
he does not want to..even one minute..
how i know?
he plans his days without my existence in
his time table..
am i suppose to comfort myself by saying that he is really busy?
or should i face the reality and truth that he actually cares his friends and activities more than me?
...does he really love me?
i am hesitating..especially....
when he does not fulfill his promises..
when he leaves me alone without slightest concern and care..
when i am unhappy...
he asks me why before reflecting of what he had done to me..
when i am complaining...
he keeps protecting himself by giving unreasonable excuses ..
he does nothing when i am angry..
he thinks that saying sorry will do...
he does nothing when i am sad..
he thinks that i am being too emotional..
he does nothing when i am disappointed..
he thinks that i am very demanding....
he does nothing except for giving excuses saying that he don't know what to do, he is innocent.
i scolded him..
i talked to him nicely..
i showed him what to do to make our relationship better..
pointless..
meaningless..
it seems that i am the only one putting effort in this relationship...
it does not balanced anymore...
my heart is getting colder..
i have used to be alone... i think..
